Friday, June 29, 2007 20:24
Should have updated this blog of mine once i reach home from chalet....
But things had to happen and cause the delay....
I practically got chest tightness and SOB....
Im okey now...
The doctor prescriped me salbutamol and other medications....
And all of them are PINK in colour including my cough mixture....
Hahahahaha...
FLU.HEADACHE.WARMNESS.MOSQUITOE BITES.MAKING NEW FREN.
DRUNK.DO STUPID STUFFS.THREWING UP.FEVER.
Thats is the decription of my class chalet.
Could not make it to Ayu's chalet as i was not feeling that good.
P05
Games
bbq
Drinking and camwhoring partner...
There are more camwhoring pixies but im lazy to post....
I'll send to you guys A.S.A.P.....
Time for me to say goodnite....
The medications are starting to kick in....
I cant wait for tmr....
A date with my gempak-ians......
Shall update soon....
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
So this is goodbye
lots of love
-aini-
Monday, June 25, 2007 23:55
Woke up with swollen eyes today....
Sungguh fugly sia...
But its okey....
Did not go out today...
Stoning at home was the best thing for me today.....
I was able to clear my thoughts and organize them....
Felt good for myself for awhile...
I will be away for awhile...
Will be going for my class chalet and also Ayu's chalet.....
Food,booze and doing nonsensical stuff will be on our to-do list....
Hahahaha....
Typical us....
Will be watching Transformer with Wani and Ardian on Sat...
Msg me or Wani if you guys want to tag along....
The more,the merrier.....
Till then people....
Ciao...
Got to pack my bag.....
Chicken goes quack quack in my world...
You cry,
You hate,
You curse,
You swear,
when you know the truth
And when reality sets in....
lots of love
-aini-
Its only matter of time that i find out the truth....
And im not blaming you for not telling me the truth....
Beside you had my interest in heart....
Sooner or later i will find out...
Just that this time round,its sooner...
Sooner as in i found out that
si mat firefighter was just toying with my feelings....
How did i know?
Guess someone had a slip of his tongue...
Should have know better.....
And i should have already learnt my lesson.....
but what to do......
Whats done cannot be undone....
Just go to move on....
take it as a lesson...
Dont be a freaking
rebound girl...
Ayu and Sulz.....
Can you guys hear that.....?
The dance floor seems to be calling out our names.....
Hahahaha....
Bring on the booze and music....
Lets party the night away.....
Thanks wani and ardian for trying their best to cheer me up....
I will be fine.....
Ade pegi ader balik kn.....Mike bravo tetap mike bravo....hahhahaha.....
I will be back in my old self soon....
For now....
GUE MAU EMO DONG....
hahahaha....
You are once a stranger in my life
We hit off well at first
Sparks flew
But now it had died
We are now back in square one
You are once again a stranger in my life
lots of love
-aini-
Sunday, June 24, 2007 15:48
Its like finally.......
finally i can enjoy my holidays....
Two weeks of attachies had just ended on Friday,22 june 2007.
I had mixed emotions leaving my attachies...
I totally drop a freaking grade in CA....
And i was glad that im done with my attachies...
Mixed feelings,right?
Hahahahaha...
Student nurses of ward 57!!!!!!!!
My daily dosage of gossips and fun....
Me and Nurul...
Pixies will be email to you people A.S.A.P.....
Spent my Saturday late afternoon with wanney and ardian....
Went to eat our favourite,Tulang....
It was Bone appetit....
Hahahaha.....
Met up with Peah and his fren....
I was obviously a lamp-post yesterday....
So akward la....
Journey back home in a bus with Azah....
Since both of you thinks im such lamp-post,
then i will just walk away from both of you.
Its better that way....
Guess i got nothing to lose except for two frens....
But the weird think is that i treat them as frens but they think otherwise.
Starting from now on,whenever we lepak again together or even just with either one of you,
i will excuse myself....
Childish you may think or say,
but i dont care....
Since i made the decision
i shuld stick by it
Hope that im strong enough
as so i wont sway from it.
*it hurts to let u go...but wat other choice do i have?
lots of love
-aini-
Friday, June 22, 2007 00:16
im so freaking EMO right now....
Plus both Rihanna and elliot Yamin songs playing over and over again...
Like so not aini la....
Im suppose to be this mangkuk girl...
Emo sungguh not my style....
Haizz.....
Tears actually flow down my cheeks on my way back home...
Wanney says its better to cry but not in the public eye...
Luckily i was super alone just now....
If not,people think i mad sia...
Crying alone in a lonely path...
A little bit weird and scary also...
Ahhahaha....
met up with the firefighter just now.....
Sanggup sia aini....
What to do....
Kater dah sayang mah......
But then again....
you the reason why tears fell...
I feel like one idiotic mangkuk to have feelings for you...
While you are hanging on to your past...
So mangkuk of me kan.....
AAAaaarrggghhhh.....
Lone ranger....
How much i wish i could believe you
Your words and actions are contridicting
Mind guessing games are not for me
You know how i feel
But im clueless bout your feelings
If this is just a game to you,
Then im sorrie
Im not that kind of girl
Please dont lead me on
Or i wont be able to forgive you
ever again...
lots of love
-aini-
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 21:59
THIS NURSE IS TOTALLY MISSING HER FIREFIGHTER!!!!!!!!Hoping that tomoro time will pass faster so that the nurse can meet up with her firefighter.....Hahahaha.....Its only been days
but to me,
it seems like eternity...
whats wrong with me
is this reality?
lots of love
-aini-
Sunday, June 17, 2007 22:16
Unpacked bag...
Uniform that is not iron.....
Waiting pics from Kecik....
Waiting for mimi's msges....
Missing wanney....
And missing mimi....
Warh.....
Thats me alright......
Aniwaes....
Watched Fantastic 4 with Wanney,Kecik,Peah and Mimi....
The movie was alright.....
Out of 5 stars, i give it a 3.....
As usual,the guys went to play pool....
Azah and Noh joined us later on....
Did not went out over the weekends....
Suppose to mit mimi on Saturday but nvr make it....
Sorry mimi if i kinda hurt you....
5 more days to go....
Before i can enjoy my hols....
Hope it goes well....
Laughters,arguements,forgiveness.
missing and maybe loving you
Thats how i feel
But do you?
*Missing my gempak-ians and you...*
lots of love
-aini-
Tuesday, June 12, 2007 10:32
Attachies on the first the day was FUN....
Especially if you have attachies-kakis like Dhaniya,Nurul and Liana....
Hahahaha.....
Like mad sia we laugh....
Me and Dhaniya are so going to turn the ward upside down.....
We rocks la auntie....
On the first day,me and Dhaniya got stomachache due to eating the beef noodle early in the morning....
Both had to B.O immediately la.....
Hahahaha.....
Wanney....
Need your help...
Bout you noe and i noe la girl....
Need to get ready for my afternoon shift....
Sayonara people...
For now onli.....
Giving you up did cross my mind
Walking away was what i intended to do
Is this how we end?
lots of love
-aini-
Monday, June 11, 2007 00:07
Playing badminton is a way to burn fats.....
No kidding la....
Make you perspire like a piggy sia....
But it was worth it....
Now my arm is aching....
The after effect of not warming up....
Hahahaha.....
Aniwaes,what im going to blog now is in malay.....
If you dont understand,ask around horh....
Here we go..... Initially aku tk nk side sesiapa pon...
Tapi ko dh press butang mengamuk aku,terimala akibat nyer....
Ko dh lead kawan aku nyer feelings long and deep lepas tu ko buat taik...
Klakar keper....
So much for i hate that fat bitch....
Perangai pompan tu mcm angel tk per......
Muker jer decent nonsense....
Tapi attitude mcm sial nyer puki....
Eh Shikin..i noe you will be reading my blog...
This a shoutout to you la girl....
Please have some little dignity...well if you still have some left that is...
To get your man back is not by sending him your HALF NAKED picture to him...
Dont you even have a little respect for yourself....
Umur jer 20 tapi perangai punyer la tk matured.....
You dump Ardian not the other way round...
Dh ludah abeh jilat balik keper....
Sial la...Dasar PENGOTOR la ko....
Maybe im being rude to blog bout it...
But too bad...
You created problems for yourself....
Ko dh kutuk kawan aku pat skola...
Spread rumuors.....
Grow up la girl.....
Klau ko dapat si Ardian balik pon,bukan pasal dier sayang kn ko la...
Pasal dier tak nak sakit kn hati pompan yang dier sayang...
Sudah tentu bukan ko la pompan...
Its kawan aku....Hazwani....
Face up to the music la....
Letting go someone you love is hard...
But if you really love that someone,you should let them be happy....
Eventhough its with someone else....
geddit....
And Ardian pon satu.....
Memang you have the right to choose...
but not by leading another party on....
Your actions and words are so contradicting la....
Sekejap cakap ko cinta kn wani la....
Ko benci si shikin...
But end up,ko pegi balik pat si sial tu...
Ko patut dianugearh kn award...
THE MOST DECEIVING GUY.......
Getting best of both worlds will make people suffer tau.....
Please la think maturely...
Dont be freaking childish....
Ko jangan to the extend aku sepak dayak ko tau....
Bodoh nyer jantan.....
Warh......
Cant believe i actually did this.....
felt so good la....
I will stand up for my frens.....
Especially wani and kecik.....
Dont you guys ever think of hurting their feelings.....
They deserve better.....
Geddit......
I dont noe why....
but i fear of losing you.....
Eventhough we are nothing towards each other..
But this feelings is there....
Are you for real....?
Please tell me you always be by my side....
Or i will just disappear.....
Or maybe i should just wake up from this fantasy world of mine..
*Is it one sided feelings....but i miss my mimi loads*
lots of love
-aini-
Sunday, June 10, 2007 00:18
How i love smelling of Dettol....
So refreshingly clean...
Hahahaha...
With a cup Lipton tea infront of me....
How perfectly nice and sweet....
Okey...lets begin...
I satisfied my craving just now at Beach road with Wanney and Kecik....
I so miss eating tulang...
That was my first time eating tulang in public sia....
Usually i will buy take away...
So comot(messy).....
Thanks to Wanney my skirt smelt like tulang....
Hahahaha...
I noe you want me not to forget the tulang smell,right?
After which,we met up with mimi,peah and frens...
Just to pass the notes jer....
Lepak for awhile before heading home....
I loike.....
Gonna miss you soon...
Rocks this shades out...
Kejer kuat...(hardwerking)
My cousin,Fajar Mustaqim Bin Fajar Mazlan is now in Brunei....
Because of his NS that is....
I so gonna rindu ko la Mun2....
I want sourvenirs,can?
But are army guys given time to shop?
i wonder......?
Attachies starts tomoro....
If cant find me online,just msg my handphone....
Sayonara people......
Things were going on fine
Guess we were not meant to be
Please prove me wrong
Or i will just walk away from you...
lots of love
-aini-
Thursday, June 7, 2007 17:07
Common test is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And im left with 2 days to enjoy myself before start of attachment....
Talking bout attachment,im so not with my attachment buddies....
Sungguh not fair....
Su and Kadir are together for this attachment together with Ayu omar and Rohaidah...
They will be going TTSH....
Boohoooo....
I'll be flying off solo at SGH....
Tini will be at CGH as she bonded there....
No more doing funny things during attachment....
Aaaarggghhhh...
Me and Kadir...
My dearest Tini and Su...
Dhaniya will be with me....
Im so gonna RINDU(miss) you guys la.....
To Ayu and Su,club la on the weekends,amcm?
Just like our previous attachment at TTSH....
Hahahaha.....
Will be helping Wanney to clean up her new house tomoro...
Wanney,I WANT TO EAT TULANG!!!!!!!!
After cleaning up your house,okey?
With Kecik ah....
Ask people along ah...
The more the merrier....
Attachies begin on Monday...
Have fun people....
And good luck to me.....
*Someone claims he sayang me......believeable?*
lots of love
-aini-
Monday, June 4, 2007 22:45
Booooooo people.......
AAAAaaarrrggggggghhhhhh......
Lalalalalalalala......
Okey....
Wat a nice way to start off my post.....
Over the weekend,good,funny and sad events occured....
Lets start with the funny and good events....
Wanney and kecik came over my house to watch a scary movie,Mr poch...
HAhahahaha...
Damn scary sia...
We practically screamed our lungs out...
Me and wanney and up laughed at her sia....
lawak la ko kecik....
concentrating babe....
look at the tv la instead of the camera....
Watch what sia until so enthu....?
FIERCE??????? you be the judge...
Over the not so good news.....
I got the feeling i will not do well for my common test....
Warh.....
Idiotic sia if like that...
Aaaaaarrggghhhh....
Mimi's mom got admitted to the hospital....
I wish her speedy recovery.....
And to the firefighter,please take care of your health also....
Jgn nk act tough horh.....
Thats should be all.....
Still got papers to study for.....
Good luck to me.....
btw attachment starts next week.....
time to work my ass off again....
If you leave me tonight
i'll wake up alone
dont tell i'll make it on my own
lots of love
-aini-
You are not suppose to be here
not when everything in my life is going well
Now you came to my life
turning my life upside down
falling head over heels
making my feelings go haywire
Will it go away
Or will it grow stronger each day
What is wrong with me?
What is this feeling deep down inside?
Inside my heart that is....
lots of love
-aini-
Friday, June 1, 2007 17:51
AAaarrrgggggghhhhhh............
Im super dead sleepy but still can get that tiny bit of awakeness in me to blog....
Hahahahaha...
Im super sad....
My bestie is going to move house already...
So freaking far...Near Bugis there...
Its far okey for me...
No more lepaking and smoke machine with her....
No more heart felt talk with her in the early mornings....
Now im such a lone ranger....
NUR HAZWANI BTE HASSAN.....
Im so gonna miss you to the max la....
Jgn luper aku tau....
Eh minah...i will miss u so much...
Went out with mimi on Vesak Day....
As usual i was late....
Janji melayu mah....
And mimi,dont deny it that you were pissed at me cos i was late...
Dont lie....
Met wanney for dinner later that night....
Abg firefighter kener bully from both of us...
Hahahaha...
To both of you who are in love..you noe who you are...
No more argueing please....
dont let underage girl ruin what you guys have for each other....
She is so freaking not worth it...
i want the best for both of you guys...
An exact quote from wanney's blog.....
"i dont want people to fall for her. cause she's mine.and will always be."
So if you want to know me much more personal,you have to get through her first...
Happy trying...
Hahahaha....
Im out for now.....
I'll be MIA for the weekend....
Im sorry if i decline your offers to go out...
Need to mug for my common test....
So soorrry.....
People say they love the truth
but in reality they want to believe
that which they love is true
-Robert Ringer-
lots of love
-aini-
